Are You the One?

[John]…asked Him, “Are You the One who is to come, or should we expect someone else?” Jesus replied to them, “Go and report to John what you hear and see: the blind see, the lame walk, those with skin diseases are healed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the poor are told the good news. And if anyone is not offended because of Me, he is blessed.”  Matthew 11:3-6 (HCSB)

Times of crisis often cause pause and force us to examine what we sincerely believe about God. Ancient writers knew this as “dark night (of the soul),” a term commonly used in Christianity for a spiritual crisis in the journey toward God.

My “dark night” came when my first wife was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer and was given only a few months to live. As a minister, husband, and father, I couldn’t understand why God was allowing this to happen to my family and me.

Like many who have also been in this situation, I sought out the best physicians, medical facilities, and experts in the field. I read everything I could get my hands on looking for answers. I begged and pleaded with God for healing. And at times, I wondered if He really cared about what my family and I were experiencing.

While cutting grass on an old John Deere lawn tractor, my soul finally became quiet enough to hear God speak to me. His question was simply this: “Do you trust Me?”

I pressed the brake, placed the tractor in idle, and said, “Do I trust you?”

Even though I’d asked Jesus into my heart at age 10, I again faced the question: Do I trust Him? I realized the eternal impact of my answer. If I couldn’t trust God to take care of my wife, my children, and me through this crisis, then how could I trust Him to take care of my soul for eternity?

With tears streaming down my face, I confessed, “I trust You. I trust You with my wife. I trust You with my children. I trust You with my life. I trust you with my future. I trust You—no matter the outcome!”